{"id":96,"date":"2017-03-19T23:31:14","date_gmt":"2017-03-19T23:31:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/?p=96"},"modified":"2018-04-22T22:31:46","modified_gmt":"2018-04-22T21:31:46","slug":"why-i-thought-id-killed-my-baby","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/why-i-thought-id-killed-my-baby\/","title":{"rendered":"Why I thought I&#8217;d killed my baby"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Sally Wilson: My postpartum psychosis.\u00a0 <\/strong>Grateful for ECT. Nina McCallig: grateful for being sectioned.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>I saw a midwife take Ella away, I believed they were taking her to be resuscitated because I&#8217;d harmed her.<\/p>\n<p>I was convinced that because I&#8217;d hurt my baby I had died and was now living in the &#8216;after life&#8217;, a kind of hell.<\/p>\n<p>The most terrifying nightmare imaginable was now my reality.<\/p>\n<p>The nurses brought Ella to see me, to reassure me she was ok. I was convinced they&#8217;d swapped her.<\/p>\n<p>This wasn&#8217;t my baby. My baby was dead. I had killed her.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.bbc.co.uk\/news\/uk-wales-39205485\" target=\"_blank\">Read the full article<\/a> (BBC News)<\/p>\n<h3>Commentary<\/h3>\n<p>Psychosis is often truly terrifying for the sufferer. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.bbc.co.uk\/programmes\/p04w9x65\" target=\"_blank\">Hear Sally talking about it<\/a> (audio clip, BBC)<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.bbc.co.uk\/newsbeat\/article\/37142224\/this-woman-photographed-her-postpartum-psychosis-recovery\" target=\"_blank\">Nina McCallig tells a similarly frightening story<\/a>. In retrospect, she is grateful for being sectioned.<\/p>\n<h3>Further info<\/h3>\n<ul>\n<li><strong>Postpartum psychosis<\/strong>\n<ul>\n<li><a href=\"http:\/\/patient.info\/doctor\/postpartum-psychosis-pro\" target=\"_blank\">Postpartum psychosis (patient.co.uk professional info)<\/a> &#8211; good<\/li>\n<li><a href=\"http:\/\/www.nhs.uk\/conditions\/postpartum-psychosis\" target=\"_blank\">Postpartum psychosis (NHS Choices)<\/a><\/li>\n<li><a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Postpartum_psychosis\" target=\"_blank\">Postpartum psychosis (Wikipedia)<\/a> &#8211; is good.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li><strong>Being sectioned<\/strong> &#8211; YouTube has many moving accounts. Just two: from <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=BlUy-4PAtsE\" target=\"_blank\">Arianecanfly<\/a> &#8211; and the mental health charity Mind has posted <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=KE8JTe68L_s\" target=\"_blank\">Making sense of sectioning<\/a><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<h3>Contributed by<\/h3>\n<p>Neil Turner<\/p>\n<h3>More like this<\/h3>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sally Wilson: My postpartum psychosis.\u00a0 Grateful for ECT. Nina McCallig: grateful for being sectioned. I saw a midwife take Ella away, I believed they were taking her to be resuscitated because I&#8217;d harmed her. I was convinced that because I&#8217;d hurt my baby I had died and was now living in the &#8216;after life&#8217;, a <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/why-i-thought-id-killed-my-baby\/\">Read More &#8230;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":99,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wpupg_custom_link":[],"wpupg_custom_link_behaviour":[],"wpupg_custom_link_nofollow":[],"wpupg_custom_image":[],"wpupg_custom_image_id":[],"yasr_overall_rating":0,"yasr_post_is_review":"","yasr_auto_insert_disabled":"","yasr_review_type":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[26,27],"tags":[28,4,13],"class_list":["post-96","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-obstetrics","category-psychiatry","tag-audio","tag-patient-experience","tag-prose"],"yasr_visitor_votes":{"stars_attributes":{"read_only":false,"span_bottom":false},"number_of_votes":0,"sum_votes":0},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=96"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":146,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96\/revisions\/146"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/99"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=96"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=96"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.scottishmedicalhumanities.org\/human\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=96"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}